ok. my first more-official post. haha. Anyway, before i even start on a whole lot of crap, I heard this song 不值得 which literally means not worth it during work by Meng Fei Chuan. I thought it was a really good song because it really speaks alot of what I'm thinking. So i was thinking that I should share the lyrics here first even before i start my crap. (:

Here goes!!!

不值得 by 梦飞船

除了想你 除了爱你
Besides thinking of you, besides loving you

hu ~ 我什么什么都愿意
hu ~ I’m willing to do anything

翻开日记 整理心情
Flipping through the diary, straightening up my mood

hu ~ 我真的真的想放弃
hu ~ I really, really think of giving up

你始终没有爱过
All along, you have never loved [me] before

你在敷衍我
You are patronizing me

一次一次忽略我的感受
Every time [you always] neglected my feelings

我真的感到力不从心
I finally feel helpless

无力继续
No more strength to continue

这感情 不值得我犹豫
This feeling, is not worth it for me to hesitate

不值得我考虑
Not worth for me to think over

不值得我爱过你
It’s not worth it that I once loved you

这种回忆 不值我提起
This piece of memory is not worth for me to mention

不值得想起
Not worth to think about

不值得哭泣
Not worth crying for

这段感情 早就应该放弃
This feeling should be given up earlier

早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
That way, early on it would have not wasted my time looking for a miracle

这样的你 不值得我恨你
Having you like this, is not worth for me to hate you

不值得我为你而坏了心情
Not worth for me to ruin my mood because of you

我决定不为你而毁了心
I’ve decided not to let my heart break because of you

放弃爱你
[I’ve] Given up loving you

SEE!!! The song speaks so much lor. Although I don't really like Meng Fei Chuan, but i've got to applaud them for this song!!! *clapz*. Ok whatever. haha. (:

Anyways, was having many urges to blast alot of things out to Junqiang. Since I can't do them in reality, I shall do them here.
*warning: will sound very mushy and despo*

to JUNQIANG ONLY:
Seriously is it really so difficult to fall in love? Why you never want to give me a chance de. It's not that you're not ready for relationships lor. It's up to you! You can be ready if you want to! Why can't you just try it out? Who knows whether it will work out or not? It might! IF it doesnt, just break up and get along with it. Is it really that difficult? Why won't you give me a chance? It isn't as though I don't like you. I do and I do!!! I still do!!!

okay. embarrassing. I didn't really blast it all out coz i wasnt really in the mood to do so. haha. (: