ARGH!!!!!!!

:(

tomorrow is 1July 2008.. AH!!!!!! THE ANNIVERSARY!!!

SIGHZ.

oh. if you don't know what I'm talking about, yes, it's the anniversary to me liking JQ. again.

SIANZ.

Anyways, I still remembered why I even started liking Junqiang lor. It was damn stupid. I shall repeat. I'll never forget, it was firedrill back then in PHS. I liked yongpin then. and then I decided I should put a stop to the YP thing, since... ya, it was kind of difficult liking yongpin then since he have a girlfriend. So i decided to anyhowly point my arrow to someone whom I really didn't like then: Su Junqiang.

Yes. So it was totally random. initially i had this feeling: ok! since I don't really like JQ, after I have forgotten yongpin, i can immediately dump JQ off my mind as some random trash that I temporarily used to forget YP. *yes i know i was super mean to try to make use of JQ*

and YES. I managed for forget YP entirely. Not even a single bit of feeling left for YP.

BUT!

My feelings for JQ grew. FFFFFFFRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEAAAAAKKKKK!

and initially I thought I could easily get over it, just as i did for YP. BUT HELL NO!!! I couldn't get over him at all!! in fact it grew stronger and stronger each time I tried to get over it. NB.

and it lasted. till today. the next anniversary after idk how long. SIGHZ.

And i know veryy well that I'm not the typical type of girls that guys will actually like, but well.... Liking someone doesn't mean that you have to be super eligible to do so.. right..? well... D: