I was bitching to Adeline about how Junqiang played with my feelings the other time when he asked me to be his girlfriend but didn't mean it. And she asked me to ask Junqiang for the exact reason why he lied. I asked, and that to the turning point, once again.

Okay, as I said, I asked Junqiang WTF the reason was, coz he was insisting that it's forbidden and refused to let me know. But I still managed to get a part out of him at first. He said that he asked me to be his girlfriend because he wanted to test whether I still like him or not, which I found quite stupid coz anyone in the right mind would know the answer.

Okay, from there, our first phone conversation stopped, coz it was 10pm and he wanted to watch tv. 5mins later, I received a message from him, and we started off with a sms conversation:

Exact spelling and words
Junqiang: Seriously if u wan to bitch abt such stuff, i won stop u. But just noe tt wadeva i do, i think ALOT! So things jus get VERY confusing. Ya.
Me:Seriously, tt juz made me even more confused. As in, i noe tt u juz wan 2 'test' me. But u nt afraid tt i agree n when i found out tt u lied, n i'll hate u meh?
Junqiang: Smth lyk tt, but tts oso y i didn't wan 2 explain 2 u on e grad nite day. And i'm prepared u angry, incl e zq part. Ya.
Me: Seriously I'm getting even more pissed. But its like, weird rite, asking tt qn juz to test me? Wah. Wad if i agreed then and forced you to keep to it? U rly taking super huge risk. Risking me to force you n risking our friendship. As in, i din ans u tt day coz of hgl. So.... If i forced you 2 keep 2 it, wad wud u do?
Junqiang: I seriously dun wish to explain, u wun wan to noe. And i am nt risking, plus if u still lyk me, pls dun. I am a scoundrel, lyk wad zq said.
Me: *warning. Very mushy.* But I WANT TO KNOW! And if u think tt's gonna stop me frm liking u, think twice! So wad even if u're a scoundrel!? I lyk u as a scoundrel cannot is it?! So wad even if u lie 2 me bout such things over n over again?! I admit tt i was rly v sad during those 2 incidents. But u think i can get over it so easily? If i cud i would haf gotten over u last dec! so wad even if u lyk someone else ie. hgl? I dont care! I juz dun wan 2 c u sad only wad. As long as u happy I dun care whether u lyk or hate me! If its just coz u dun lyk me tt i dun lyk u, tt means tt i din even lyk u 2 begin wif! Nvm. U wun understand. Wait till hgl tells u e same thing den u'll understand.

Yes, super drama I know. And do not mind the horrendous language used in those smses. Its my way of reducing the characters. Sorry if you're having a hard time trying to read them.

Okay, so after that mushy sms, I decided that he was probably going to ignore me so I continued watching television until about a minute later, i heard my phone ring. So i ran off to my room, and realised that it's Junqiang. I was hesistating whether to answer or not, but I just answered nonetheless.

The heck! That 2nd phone conversation really led to a turning point in this situation!! okay, it sort of went like this. It isn't exact words, but the meaning's there.

Junqiang: eh. Why call you that time got english music one?
Me: Huh? *that was so random*
Junqiang: You don't believe you call yourself and hear lor.
Me: Uh huh. *still found it super random*
Junqiang: Oh ya. Your sms so long. What you mean?
Me: Huh? *Don't expect me to confess AGAIN*
Junqiang: *reads part of my sms* Ya, so is there typo error?
Me: Huh? *as in, you called me just to correct my english?*
Junqiang: Ya. You spelt 'as' as 'ask'. Look at the 2nd or 3rd line.
Me: Oh. I did. *still found this super random*
Junqiang: Oh ya. so what you mean?
Me: I meant everything literally. *don't expect me to say everything out in words*
Junqiang: *re-reads the sms to himself* but seriously, don't.. I'm a scoundrel.
Me: *sigh* As i've already said, SO WHAT IF YOU'RE ONE?! Like i said, you won't understand!
Junqiang: No. I understand.
Me: ORLY? It's the same as Guanlin telling you not to like her anymore! I ask you, if guanlin ask you not to like her anymore, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?!
Junqiang: I'll just keep quiet.
Me: Okay then, so i shall keep silent too.
Junqiang: Actually... Okay I have to say that name. Lingli. I was uncertain whether I like her or not.
Me: HUH?! YOU LIKE HER?!
Junqiang: No lah. That was like, months ago.
Me: Oh. So you don't like her lah?
Junqiang: DUH! Of course not.
Me: Oh..... *heaves a sigh of relief*. and then?
Junqiang: I was uncertain of lingli that time, before I confirmed that I don't like her. As for Guanlin, I've always been uncertain, even until now.
Me: Huh? I thought you like her?
Junqiang: As in, I'm still uncertain whether I like her or not. But it's almost nothing. Ya.
Me: Oh. *so he don't really like her lah...*

*silence*
Junqiang: hello? you still there?
Me: ya.
Junqiang: And you mentioned that you don't want to see me sad. Actually you see alot of times already what.
Me: I know.
Junqiang: And it's also caused by you what.
Me: O.O what does it even have to do with me?
Junqiang: Of course! Whatever you tell Leeanne and Zhenqin means you always angry with me. Like on your birthday after we left escape that time.
Me: *recalled that I scolded him saying that he's no different from mr. SUCKERFISH* Oh. But most of the time I thought you sad cause of Zhenqin.
Junqiang: Ya lah, but you also contributed to me being sad what.
Me: Whatever.

*silence*
Junqiang: But okay, REALLY, that time I was wondering whether you still like me or not, that's why I asked you that question, but regretted later, and I didn't want to know the answer. But then I really wanted to know the answer later again, that's why I asked you again on the phone, but you didn't answer me again. So I regretted it again. So I was thinking and branching out possibilities: If you say yes, and if you say no. And if you say yes, it would branch out into two possibilities: Whether I'm prepared to go into a relationship or not. And if I am prepared, it would branch out into many other possibilities, which is very confusing. So I guess I'm not prepared, which was why I told you that I was lying on grad night.
Me: SO YOU WERE LYING THAT NIGHT?!
Junqiang: as in.... Ya. Coz I wasn't prepared.
Me: WL! You made me think that I'm SUPER deluded until I thought I've been seeing things on my phone!
Junqiang: Ya lah. I was just lying when I denied it.
Me: WA LAU! Like that you make people think that I'm lying lor!

*awkward silence for around 30seconds*

me: Can you like, say something? You call me just to repeat everything to me?
Junqiang: No lah. I was reading your sms.
me: Uh huh... *lame answer i know*
Junqiang: Can I ask you something? Do you regret asking me the real reason, although you don't know the real reason yet?
me: >__< WTF. YOU HAVEN'T TOLD ME THE REAL REASON!? MEANS YOU'RE LYING AGAIN!?
Junqiang: No lah. As in, you only know part I... Still got part II.
Me: Okay lor. So tell me what's part II.
Junqiang: Cannot! That part is forbidden!!
Me: JUST SAY! *I got pissed. :P *
Junqiang: ..............
Me: SAY LAH AIYOH.
Junqiang: Okay, remember just now you asked me what would I do if you forced me to keep with it?
Me: Uh huh... *awaits for disappointing answers*
Junqiang: I won't mind.
Me: Huh? *surprised*
Junqiang: Ya I don't mind.
Me: Ok ok wait wait. I understand the part that you said you're not ready for such things. But you said you don't mind.... ? huh?
Junqiang: Ya i meant I don't mind.
Me: *silence coz I was damn confused*
Junqiang: You get my meaning?
Me: Think so *still surprised*
Junqiang: Ok, what did I mean?
Me: You meant that you don't mind lor.
Junqiang: SIGH. What do I mean by I don't mind?
Me: That... You don't mind fulfilling that question you asked lor.
Junqiang: And what is THAT question?
Me: the... erm... Whether I'll be your girlfriend.......
Junqiang: OKAY! You've got it. Bye bye. *coz his tv show was starting since it's already 11pm then*
Me: *quickly* bye bye! *puts down phone before calming down*


The heck. Sorry for this friggin long thing. Haha. It's for future reference in case I forget everything that happened. So what now? I really don't know! ANYONE TELL ME WHAT THIS MEANS!!!
It just made me even more confused! AIYAH. Fine. It shall all come naturally, I HOPE.