Received a couple of freaky smses from our dear princess mingming yesterday. I extracted some of the contents and decided to post some here, plus some comments I've got to say about it. Here goes:

11nov 1.31am
''My not considered la.... Same same.... Zq is your next crush ba?''


11nov 1.33am
''Really thought they say zq like you? Maybe you can consider him... Haha...''


11nov 1.38am
''Not sure heard from who but i know jq also thinks tat he interested in you.....''

11nov 1.50am
Haha... Really... I thought you treat him as substitute for jq haha....''



ok seriously, i'm quite caught aback by this. It means that it has just unknowingly spread to....... i don't know where. but well... Seriously, it's impossible between me and zq. I only treat zq as my little brother, nothing more than that, thank you very much, and this brother-sister relationship between us will remain. So do not think too much between the both of us. He's just another one of my good friends.

Anyway, I think i really used up tonnes of brain cells these 2 days to think of whatever significant *or maybe insignificant, i don't know* things that Junqiang did to me before. And goodness. I've got a whole list of them, and they set my blood boiling. Here goes some of the more ''crucial'' ones, i guess. It really isn't in the chronological order, coz seriously, i can't remember what came first too. :P

1) Confession to YP: I still remember. Junqiang, you made me confess to YP on 30th Jan 2007 this year, just because you didn't want rumours between both of us to go on again. Like, to hell with you. How would you feel if I forced you to confess to someone you didn't like just for my own selfish wants. How selfish and self-centered can you get? And I was so dumb to had gone along with your wants. I'm such a fool. And when I got angry when you asked me to confess, you had it sound as though I'm being completely unreasonable to have gotten angry with you. If you need to recap, please refer to my previous post dated 29th January. And because of this, Leeanne had to go confess to OOO too. All just because you selfishly wanted to stop the rumours between you and me. However, it didn't stop. The aftermaths of this incident is simple: The loss of yongpin as my friend, harassment of the bunch of idiots from ooo's gang, the loss of my first fake confession, the loss of trust in you, and the rumours between you and me became worse.

2) August 16: You screamed and chased me away for no good reason, probably because I wasn't on real good terms with zq then, and since your life seemingly revolves around him last time, it wasn't a real surprising thing that you did that to me. Hey wait, maybe it wasn't that time that i was on bad terms with zq, since zq and sam sided with me then. Please refer to the post on 16aug for recap on that incident. Thank you. Worse thing was that you can't remember this incident now. It's okay. Everyone else does. You just made me hate you.

3) October 3th: You actually ran away the other time in school, as well as outside the mrt at woodlands. Like, TO HELL WITH YOU. Who do you think you are?! You think what, the whole world cannot survive without you is it? Fuck you. And even after doing that, you even had the guts to push the blame onto others. Like, Come on! You ain't any 3 year old kiddo. Take responsibility for your own actions. You wouldn't like someone doing that to you right. If that's the case, why did you do it in the past? In regards to that, I've only got one thing to say: Junqiang, don't blame me if i do the same thing to you the next time. It used to be your game. But now, it's mine.

4) October 5th Grad day: That day, you were the one who asked me along to orchard before going to CSC with you. But that day, you asked Sam and ZQ along. And obviously, I was badly insulted by zq coz i was on super bad terms with him then, and they sounded super unwilling to go with me to orchard. Before the train arrived, i asked you seriously whether to hell are WE going. You couldn't give me a definite answer, since your life revolves around zq. So to hell with it, I left. And that was the day, your friendship with sam came to a halt. I was fucking pissed off then, and was fiercely glad about what happened between you and sam.

5) October 1st: It was just before our chemistry lesson. You had a fucking crush on that fucking bitch then. She could touch you shoulder and stuff. But What happened? I got fucking ticked off when i hit you with my water bottle, because it LOOKS so mushy when i whack you with a fucking lifeless water bottle. Oh fuck you. She can touch you with her bare hands, and it's totally okay, when a water bottle seems tooooo mushy for you. WELL DONE. You just made me hate you. And as I'm typing this, I'm recalling the entire scene, and I'm now fully pissed off with you.

All those typings just made me more angry with you, although i know its awfully childish to get angry with you now since I'm on pretty good terms with you, zq and sam now. But who cares. Whatever hurt you've done will never be undone. Physical scars will heal, but emotional scars WON'T. And wait. Maybe I've got to change that sentence a little, coz, DAMN YOU JQ. THE SCAR YOU LEFT ON MY ARM WHEN YOU GRABBED ME THE OTHER TIME IS STILL PRESENT. ok. So that previous sentence doesn't really stand, does it? Of course, there are still a gazillion reasons for me to get pissed with you, for e.g., the dining etiquette incident and unfair treatment between me and that bitch. Oh, to the fuck with it, these all added together will NEVER EVER amount and surmount to that fucking incident at my house.

THE ULTIMATE HURT YOU INFLICTED:
the other time you, zq, sam and christie came to my house to get me to give zq his psp. YOU LIED TO ME AWFULLY BAD! you lied, saying that you liked me. I thought you were joking then, and told you to quit it. Then, you held my hand and placed it against your chest saying, ''you feel my heart for yourself. I'm not joking. I really love you.''. DID YOU FUCKING KNOW THAT I MELTED THERE AND THEN!? I should have known better. that night when you told me that you said that so that i'll give zq what he wanted. I so badly wanted to break down there and then. Did you know how cruel it was!? You fucking broke my heart into a gazillion pieces then. That's it. I'm never ever gonna trust guys. It's okay if you didn't like me, BUT YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO LIE TO ME RIGHT. You made use of my feelings. That ended it all. I'm not trusting you EVER!


ok i know its super childish of me to get pissed off now since you've already apologised profusely for everything you did, except for the ultimate hurt, since i didn't mention it to you. Well, just gotta write it all down to vent it all. i shall continue when i recall more stuff. (:



Sorry if this post is kinda vulgar. Coz i'm really super pissed off. haha. (: SMILES :*)