omg. i cried just now. damn it.
i'm damn guilty. just now i received sms from samuel, telling me that JQ was crying when he called him, and that it was coz JQ had council meeting, and that he can't meet us tomorrow. apparently we were supposed to have an outing, like after so long.
den just now before we went into the chem lab for spa, JQ told me that he may have council meeting tomorrow until 4pm. and being the usual unreasonable brat i was, I got pissed and scolded him.. like, ''WAH LAU!!! THANKS TO YOU LAH!!! DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I WAS LOOKING FORWARD TO GOING OUT WITH SAMUEL ZHENQIN THEY ALL!! NOW COZ OF YOU IT'S ALL RUINED!!!".
ok, it was super not understanding of me.. and i didn't take into consideration of what he may be feeling. given a choice, he would definitely wanna come with us instead.. well. D:
and i totally forgot about it, until just now when samuel smsed me and told me that JQ called him crying just now. and that it was coz he cannot meet us tomorrow.
I was like... omg.... *whole world crashes down*
and i immediately messaged JQ..
not long later, he called me..
i didn't know how to express myself to him at all... I really didn't know what to tell him.. apparently he hasn't calmed down yet. I so badly wanted to cry again lah.. but cannot. if i cry, den if he cry den how.. so I was trying to maintain a cheery mood. so everything coming out was damn stupid and ridiculous. I was like trying to say in the happy tone, ''Don't worry. no matter that, we'll wait for u.''. and it ended up sounding awfully weird. LOLZ. AHEM ANYWAY, poor boy. totally stressed out from council, and can't even have a day to rest. *wipes off tear*
*sniffles*
anyway, he was telling me about random problems in council. and I was like, ''ooooo. internal affairs. Wu jian dao!" and at that point of time i suddenly started thinking of Tony Leung (Liang Chao Wei). Lol. b4 that i was still thinking of Mu Chun Tuo Zai (The Gatsby guy).
AHEMZ.
and yea... made me awfully guilty..
sigh..
Sorry Junqiang, I ought to be more understanding..