I was damn pissed in the beginning. Huiming told me about what Junqiang has been bitching about me lah. but coming to think about it, i wasn't really all that angry.

According to huiming, he sorta bitched about me leeching onto him.

and yes, i did confront him.

he said that during the whole camp, i kept like buay song when Junqiang is with Jinxiang, and that i keep staring at him and stuff.

and i was like, ''wtf? stare? u sure is stare? or glare?''

and yes, apparently he said that it was glare, and was like, ''u know, u and ur dao face.''

Seriously i must clear my name here lor. not that i purposely want to dao anyone or what. Is that i naturally have a dao face when I am expressionless. and sometimes i just have a weird attitude, coz there're sometimes in the day when I just feel having some quiet moments to myself. And i get super impatient whenever people talk to me during those periods of time. Seriously i'm a weird person lah, so it's nt that i wanna dao anyone or what. It's just the natural face I'm born with when i have no expressions.

Anyways, it sorta ended there lah. Seriously i'm not really that pissed off. Maybe I'm really guilty of doing so bah.

Maybe Huiming's right. I should forget him. A.S.A.P. Quite miserable... It's like, another 30days till the next anniversary? I really don't want to last till then. I WON'T LAST TILL THEN! *ihope*

BACK from camp. Finally!!

Was damn dirty.. shall say what happened..

First day:
Waited at sch friggin long to get onto the bus. my bag was like, friggin heavy la.. and then on the bus, nth rly much happened. was too busy sleeping my head off coz was so friggin tired. but sad la.. due to the bus arrangements, our class got divided into 2.. the girls were in one bus, and the guy, with lelia and jolene, were separated into another bus. SAD.

I was like, looking out for Junqiang at the customs. Apparently, ruoting (or was it johnia?) said that Junqiang is in another queue in front. but no matter how much i tried to see or look out for him, i couldnt see him la!! SAD.

and i was damn horrified when we reached Kota tinggi. There was this suspended bridge that we needed to walk alot of times lah. i was super horrified can!! it's damn shakey lah!! Like, omg?! KILL ME!!! I said that over a gazillion times can! it's like, omg? and then we had lunch.. ya.. lunch was P.A.T.H.E.T.I.C!! like it's damn small serving lah. I was damn hungry den the rice is like, super little lor. almost can finish within like, 5 spoons? or maybe even 4. Pathetic right? den the egg is those braised hard boiled egg. Wth, the egg is like wrinkled up and stuff. So i didn't eat it. The veggies sucked too. Like, ew... super soggy cabbage with some random veggie. and banana. URGHS... everyone felt the food sucked.. whoever feels that the food is super delicious can go and die.

After that we went to Pelapah Waterfall. Ta ma de.. Damn long walk lah. I was like, omg! when is it gonna end.. I was walking with yenshan cindy leonard and leeping. and we got so friggin bored on the way to pelapah waterfall that we decided to make leonard our daddy. like hey! i'm the youngest lor. yenshan thought i oldest at first den call me jie jie. in the end i'm the mei mei. HAHAHA. and then we reached the entrance that reads, ''Pelapah waterfall''. And i was like, yes! at least the entrance looks friendly! the surrounding was like, dirty, swampy and foresty.. And i was like, ''HENG AH!! got proper road to walk.''. and hell was i wrong. the IC (ming xiong, i remember it man junqiang) was like, ''okay guys now we'll make our way to the waterfall!'' and he walked into the swamp! I WAS LIKE, WTF!!! i tot we were going in thru the wonderfully laid out roads. WTF?!?!?

And yes, we walked thru the waters... And it's damn chialat lah. the water height was around my thighs. and i was worried about leeches. I was grabbing onto ivin and leonard. hahahas. i didn't wanna die so soon!! and the route was hell friggin long la. I so badly wanted to die lor. Nb one.. took a couple of photos in between and stuff too of course. and then FOOD POISONING. Freak..

Second day:
JETTY JUMP!! and kayaking. Kill me. Our coordination sucked. tt's all i can say. I was damn pissed. partnered Junqiang and Lee ping. mans..

Third day:
CLIMBED MOUNT Gunung Panti. Shall post this in a different post tgt with photos. too much to say, but lazy to type. X.x

YES! i got into New Media Arts EXCO!!! YAY!!! i dunno wad position i'm in though. :P
Anyway, we went for concert at RP. damn lame. seriously. the only part i liked was cam whoring!!! okay. photos. no words. hahas.

Anyways, i'll be going for camp soon. will nt be posting anyhing for long. :(

Went out with Sam, Jq and Zq today. Seriously they are the nicest nicest nicest nicest nicest friends that I could ever have. I really really love all of them lah, especially... YA.

But i think i was damn despo today lah. I got dian dao by JQ (the most), samuel, ZQ and samuel's bro, daniel.

We went samuel's house today. I had my socks on when we went in. Then i was kneeling on daniel's bed (with my socks on), daniel came into the room and was like, ''GASP!!! XIAO JIE!!! YOUR SOCKS!!! I don't want to keep thinking of you tonight ah!''. LOL. damn cute la, his expression. LOL. And he changed in the room.. -___-

We then watched Superheros movie. Super hilarious lah. ZQ kept laughing and laughing throughout non-stop lor. Super funny.

And then Samuel's daddy drove us to some place in sembawang to eat. and jq slept beside me in the car. SUPER DIAN ME LA.. I was rather shy when zq said, ''Kimberly, u lie down on his shoulder lah. den i can take photo den u all can be the new edison chen and gilian chung.''. DOTS. LOLZ.

And zq actually allowed me and jq to lie on his shoulder just now. so sweet!! hahas... no mood blog now. blog next time.

SIGH. summer tests!!! ARGH!!!

super stress lor, when i see people mug. cheh..

Anyway, I had never known that our class has this internal conflict lah.. As in, not that i didn't notice the slight tension, but it's like, i didn't know it was till THAT extent lah. Hais... But seriously, it's not a big issue lor. Might be just a misunderstand... Hope u all can understand each other lah..

During cca today at the blue studio, Junyang was damn funny! he had to wear this garbage bag thingy coz he's our mascot for the day. Super hilarious!! LOL..

Aiyah no mood blog now damn tired. will blog another time. (:

ARGH!!!

Summer test is coming soon, and i seriously haven't even started studying lah.. Ok nevermind i know people won't believe me even if i tell them this, but it's true!!!

I dunno why these few times i get so cranky and tired out easily. As in, seriously leh. I feel like sleeping all the time lor. Den i get like, ''omg omg omg. wad if i fail summer test? I must study this, i must study that.'' but in the end, i end up not studying, but only worrying day and night about it. Like what the hell lahs... Worry worry worry. Somemore got so much homework to do.. plus cca and other stuff. not like I can't cope. I would be able to cope, if only i wasn't a human. Only if i didn't have to sleep/ sleep only 30mins a day.

Confirm cannot one lor. That night i stayed up to do GPP (only finished at around 4.30am, before i did maths tutorial).. The whole day i felt super lousy and I slept at like, 8.50pm that day (i reached home at 7.30pm). HAIZ... I must really start mugging.

Manz, this month is a real busy month for me. Summer tests, Leadership camp briefing (CG chairperson), Leadership test (New Media Arts), Morning broadcast, OCIP meeting, Kota Tinggi Camp, and PW pilot test!!! ARGH!!! not to mention, mugging of course.

WOW. Seriously I was never this busy in my entire life. Nvm. I can cope one. *can I?*

I dunno leh. This few days (especially today) I was exceptionally cranky lah.. Seriously lor. Super bad mood nowadays. And obviously Jq isn't making it much better for me. Somemore my left eye is like, swollen or some sort of infection. It's not visible on the surface, but i just keep tearing non-stop. it's super sickening. and i have to rub it rather often, if not i'll look as though I'm crying or some sort of crazy person who just cried out of no where. So stupid.

And wth. Today was damn pissed during civics lah. Coz we were supposed to go to LT1 for the briefing for our Kota Tinggi camp. and the teacher seriously pissed me off damn badly lah. Just coz students came late, he kept scolding and screaming and said that we're wasting precious time, and that we shouldn't let those trainers wait for us. OR like wad he said, ''You all are making the COMPANY wait for u.''. So pro hor, whole company wait for those students. Erm, there were only 2 people. Anways, SO FRIGGIN STUPID i tell you. He kept wasting time scolding and scolding people and asking people to sit on the stage or the floor just to punish them, when they could have moved into a seat near the back, since there were lotsa vacant seats. See? He wasted time by scolding them and asking them to move lah. So stupid can. And this whole thing kept on for like 20mins before he said someting like, ''ok we shall not delay further coz of these students and start.''. And i heard this malay guy *dunno who he is* say, ''Now then he know. And he's the one delaying lor. not the students.''. I SERIOUSLY AGREE LAH.
PST: I was also irritated coz i was seated near the speaker when he kept screaming into the mic.

RAWR. And DANG! i had to redo my napfa 5 items while the rest played because i saw the chart wrongly!!! AH!!! sit and reach need 31cm at least to pass... I saw it wrongly as sit ups, and thought 18cm pass liao... in the end i only pushed till 30cm last week. SEE?! so i had to redo it today. Ok la, passed everything better den i did last week. *phew*. But the rest got to play basketball. LUCKYYY.. Nvm, i'll join them next week :D

And then after school, Junqiang, Leeping *i spelt ur name correctly okay* and I went to Gelare to eat. The pasta was damn nice lah. I had the pork rib one while leeping had the seafood one. Yea. Jq wanted to try the pork rib at first, and so i generously gave him a big piece lah. *i'm so nice*. and he was describing how good it is and stuff. and yea, he sorta liked it. Yep, so despite me being rathe hungry, I left 1/4 of it for him okay!! I'm so nice right!!??!?!?! and he was happily eating and digging off my bones. *wait, not my bones. the pork..''

And seriously i think Jq is a damn mean person. I mean, seriously! I'm always nice / try to be nice to him, but he's never nice to me lor. Even after i do something for him, he never appreciates it and is always either sarcastic or being just a plain asshole to me lah. Slap him.

Anyway, junqiang told me today that Jinxiang is scared of me coz i always give the dao face.

Eh seriously lah, it's not i dao or what lor. must clarify this coz i know i got this type of face. It's seriously natural.. Really, not that I'm dao or what. This is what happens / how i look when i'm deep in thoughts / mere spacing out, which i am 99% of the time. ya... must clarify, if not people think i'm super not approachable and unfriendly :(
I'm very nice one okay.. LOL. :D

Anyways, just now in Kiddy palace, Junqiang mentioned about liking some green Den-o model, and how he likes it, but it costs $29.90 and he can't afford it, and he'll save money to buy it some other time. And it happened to strike me to buy it as a small gift for him.. Should I? not that i can't afford it lah, but will he like, get the wrong idea or something? I mean, It's just a gift for a FrIeNd.... right? :S

Sometimes I find myself so foolish
I get angry over little things
and get satisfied over little things as well

Every little thing that Jq does changes my mood alot alot lahs.
I've no idea why also. don't ask me.

And guess what's that little thing that JQ did to make me happy?
It was just that he sms-ed me.

SEE?! a simple sms from him and i can get so happy. how stupid of me.

But i realised that the times he really pisses me off is definitely more than the times that he make me happy.. sigh...

How i wished we could just go back to secondary school days...

where we can just sit together and chat all day long without having to bother about anything at all. everything has changed since we entered this school. every single thing. hais...

He's no longer as nice to me. we no longer chat like how we used to. Everything is different. why... :'(

WL... I'm really super duper lagging behind in my studies... People always say I'm a mugger and stuff. but they didn't know that i hadnt studied myself for many weeks... I'm badly lagging behind in all my subjects nw...

Maths: I never studied it since i stopped at APGP.
Chemistry: I only studied if got test the next day, which is why i'm failing so badly.
Bio: I only learnt till biological molecules... ... ...
Econs: only till supply and price determination.
Chinese: didn't even touch it.
GP: didnt even touch it.
PW: okay i ''mugged'' most for this subject

Does this mean i'll be doing extremely bad for my summer test, which is like, next week? I don't understand why i cant just concentrate and study. i keep procrastinating and stressing myself at the same time over pointless issues.

Pointless issues: Worrying about Jq, whether girls like him, whether he's doing things to me on purpose etc.

Yep. I'm that boh liao. too preoccupied by such things.

ALL BECAUSE I STILL HAVENT GOTTEN OVER WHAT HAPPENED LAST YEAR.

last friday Jq and Jx were sitting together at the same row as me during maths lecture, and yenshan and cindy were sitting behind them and 4 of them were like talking happily. I was like throwing killer stares at Jq then lah. and then I heard JX ''whisper'' (coz he's usually quite loud) to Jq something like, ''Eh.. Kimberly glaring at us leh.'' and Jq immediately turned and look over to my direction. I immediately glanced away and pretended to be staring at something random lah.

Yes, this is how jealous i will get. Even he sit with guys sometimes i also will be abit jealous one. as in, not jealous lah.. but it only applies whenever he sit with jx. i dun mind him sitting with other guys. so this means tt i just have something against jx. okay. hahas. i know that. Lol.

And so stupid! Junqiang say i have something against him. PLEASE LOR. it's more like he have something against me lor. everytime doing things on me on purpose one. it's like, he dun mind anything other people do to him, but mind things that i do to him lor. FUCKING HELL. i'm damn pissed lah. WHY MUST I EVEN FALL FOR SUCH AN IDIOT. sickening fucking fucked up fucker. okay, i'm really pissed. RAWR.

Okay
i should really get mugging. haven't mugged for countless weeks
and i'm serious
summer test is up soon
i must mug
cannot let people down
PLUS,

I cannot lose to Jq.

I've only got something to say.

I'm super pissed off with JQ.
GRRRR.

He's like wtf lah. today during lunch he suddenly disappeared, and i walked over to Lee ping's table, only to realise that he's sitting with tys ALONE at the table, as in like, both squeezed at the same bench. I was like, fucking *whatever word to describe*. He damn what lor. He saw me and gave the ''oh shit'' face. FUCK LAH. FUCKING PISSED. so many seats around the table but he must squeeze into the same chair/bench as her.

If i were her, he wouldn't even sit at the same bench lor. He would like sit far far away. definitely much further away. FUCK THAT JQ!

And yes, i was super fucking pissed I cried out of anger.

After that it was chinese lesson. And that idiotic Jq was sitting behind, while me and Lee Ping went to sit behind as well. *not beside him, but far away*. den he stood up and went right in front to sit with that chao turtle lor. I was like, ''WHAT THE FUCK!?''. I was damn pissed lah.

And i couldn't take it any longer and demanded an answer from Jq via sms: YOU LIKE TYS IS IT?!?!? HUH?!?!?. and after like a gazillion minutes, he replied, ''no... she ask me over teach her maths... in the end is she teach me... haha.''. WTF? I got even more pissed when he told me that lah.

That loser JQ taught her immediately. What about me?! I asked him to teach me chemistry for the test since 3 days ago. AND YET UNTIL NOW WE ALREADY GOT BACK CHEMISTRY RESULTS AND HE STILL HAVEN'T TAUGHT ME YET. and gave the excuse that he was busy and didn't know how to do chemistry.

PLEASE, busy? i saw him eating roti john happily and chatting around. BUSY HUH?
and btw, he got 2nd in class for chemistry.

SO MUCH FOR NOT KNOWING HOW TO DO.

Somemore PE that time also. The girls ran 2.4km today. for my last round, he shouted at me, ''KING KONG RUN LAH!''. And i sprinted the whole round. But i realised later that it was the other people who asked him to cheer for me. However, he jogged alongside Ziqin during her last lap to encourage her.

SEE?!?!?! WHAT VAST DIFFERENCE!!! people need to ASK him to try encourage me, and all he did was insult me. For other girls leh? He can willingly run alongside her HIMSELF, without anyone asking him to, to give her support. SEE?!?!?!

SEE?!

JQ, I HATE YOU

i want you out of my life ASAP. don't wanna see your fucking face ever again!!!

Was chemistry spa today. was super worried that i would be late coz the bus was taking a hell long time to arrive... Wanted to take a cab, but no cab was in sight. luckily the bus came... and Yen shan was on the same bus! (: at least no need go school myself. but things weren't so smooth sailing after that...

The na beh school gate was locked lah. wtf? yenshan and I were like, ''omg!!!!! WTF?!?!''. and Cindy came... and the 3 of us decided to walk one huge round to get to the side gate. WTF x2. The gate was locked too. So we had to walk a damn long distance to be back gate. WTF x10. IT WAS ALSO LOCKED. NA BEH LAH! lock all for what?! SIAO AH. luckily we managed to find this small opened area and quickly went over to the chemistry lab. luckily we not the latest.. Sigh...

And spa was alright. After spa, we ALL went to have lunch together at cwp. (: Alvin, boon ping, Leonard, Junqiang, Joanna, Joanna's friend, Audrey, Abilgail, Zona, Ruo Ting, Lee ping and me. Ya. hehe. alot of people. LOL. and when i was queueing up for ban mian with Audrey, Jq was behind me and was like, ''I KNEW IT. hahas. Kimberly come cwp foodcourt forever eat ban mian one.''. -____-

Ya, and after that Junqiang, Abilgail, Jo, Ruoting and Lee ping came my house do pw. *lee ping only came to borrow clothes.* lol. Of course, as usual, got some embarrassing moments... as usual.. coz i took out harvest to show them how stupid JQ looked in sec 1. hhahahahahas! and then i don't know what we were talking when Joanna sudddenly asked something stunning...

Jo Anna to JQ: How many girls have crush on you before?
JQ: none.
Jo Anna: Who say don't have. down here got one liao.
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And after she said that, there was an awkward silence as everyone stared gleely at me... So badly wanted to bury myself.. this awkward silence went on for approximately 10 seconds before I decided to break the silence by saying, ''Anyone want somemore green tea? I go kitchen take...''. And they gave me the -_____- face. like, of course lah! then what they expect me say? OH MANZ YOU'RE SO DEAD RIGHT. I LOVE JQ LIKE CRAZY. cannot right? ya lah..

but today i look picture of Jq when he was fiddling with my stuffed stitch.. and for some reason, i've no idea whether it's just me or not, but i find it super extremely.. WHATEVER WORD YOU USE TO DESCRIBE IT, but it's just super charming to me lah.. I kena electric shocks lor...

wah lau, I really starting to 看不过去 already lor. I really can't stand Junqiang. He's totally faking lah. or more like, he's trying to ''fit into'' Zhenqin by trying to speak like him. stupidly ridiculous. just now on the msn conversation, JQ was like trying to fit into Zq by saying that Ijc got hot babes. WTH? Rubbish leh he. I still remember him saying many times that ijc girls can't even see one lor. RUBBISH..

Somemore keep on por-ing ZQ by saying how handsome n how handsome zq is. oh man please!!! he say that zq is damn disgusting last time coz he kept por-ing people. himself leh? Keep trying to por zq to get into zq's good boots. wtf? Stupid.

And please lah, next time when want to try to infuriate me using her name, please get your facts right first lah. stupid.

Went out with THEM today (: Sam, Junqiang, Zhenqin and Leeanne. Met up with Samuel first at Yishun mrt, before meeting Jq and Leeanne at amk mrt station. However... SOMETHING AWFUL HAPPENED WHEN I WAS WAITING FOR SAMUEL AT YISHUN MRT STATION!!! WTFFF!!!

FLASSSSHBACK.
the moment i stepped out of the mrt train at yishun mrt, i leaned against the railings while waiting for samuel. Suddenly this guy came up to me and started a WEIRD conversation with me.
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Random guy: er. can u lend me some money? i got no money take bus home....
Me: er.. okay.. *wanted to only give 10cents, but realised that i only had 20cent coins, and gave him 20cents*.
Random guy: how old are you?
Me: Errrr... 20. *wanted to lie abt my age*
Random guy: oh.. i'm 16plus.
Me: *thinks: WTF? you look like you're in your late 30s* Oh..
Random guy: Can you be my friend?
Me: Er. I think i have enough friends. *before i realised how stupid my answer was*
Random guy: Can i ask you a question, but don't be angry?
Me: But i think i'll get angry.
Random guy: *ignores me and continued* will you be my girlfriend?
Me: WTF? *yes i said it out loudly*
Random guy: So will you be my girlfriend?
Me: err... I'm waiting for my friend.
Random guy: Is that person coming soon?
Me: YES.
Random guy: Is he your boyfriend?
Me: YES YES YES. *kena tap on shoulder by samuel*
Samuel: Hi Kimberly.
Me: *turns around and gives samuel a ''HELP MEEE'' face, before telling the guy* Er. This is my friend.
Samuel: *understood wad was going on and went one side to sms me.* Is he another pervert?
Me: *send sms to sam* SAMUEL SAVE ME!! THIS GUY ASKING ME BE HIS GF!!!
Random guy: Can you give me your number?
Me: Er... i don't have paper and pen..
Random guy: what about your friend?
Me: *no choice so grudging asked samuel* u got pen...?
Samuel: Don't have..
Me: *THANKS SAMUEL and tells that guy* er. my friend dun hav...
Random guy: Can you go out with me for lunch?
Me: Er. not very convenient.
Random guy: Please...?
Me: NO.
Samuel: *laughs*
Me: *tries to chase that guy away*

AND I SUCCEEDED IN CHASING HIM AWAY IN THE END.
and after that samuel was laughing and said that I'm so damn suay... I kena from such guys 2 times this year liao lor... Wtf..

Some photos we took today though.