ok. my first more-official post. haha. Anyway, before i even start on a whole lot of crap, I heard this song 不值得 which literally means not worth it during work by Meng Fei Chuan. I thought it was a really good song because it really speaks alot of what I'm thinking. So i was thinking that I should share the lyrics here first even before i start my crap. (:

Here goes!!!

不值得 by 梦飞船

除了想你 除了爱你
Besides thinking of you, besides loving you

hu ~ 我什么什么都愿意
hu ~ I’m willing to do anything

翻开日记 整理心情
Flipping through the diary, straightening up my mood

hu ~ 我真的真的想放弃
hu ~ I really, really think of giving up

你始终没有爱过
All along, you have never loved [me] before

你在敷衍我
You are patronizing me

一次一次忽略我的感受
Every time [you always] neglected my feelings

我真的感到力不从心
I finally feel helpless

无力继续
No more strength to continue

这感情 不值得我犹豫
This feeling, is not worth it for me to hesitate

不值得我考虑
Not worth for me to think over

不值得我爱过你
It’s not worth it that I once loved you

这种回忆 不值我提起
This piece of memory is not worth for me to mention

不值得想起
Not worth to think about

不值得哭泣
Not worth crying for

这段感情 早就应该放弃
This feeling should be given up earlier

早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
That way, early on it would have not wasted my time looking for a miracle

这样的你 不值得我恨你
Having you like this, is not worth for me to hate you

不值得我为你而坏了心情
Not worth for me to ruin my mood because of you

我决定不为你而毁了心
I’ve decided not to let my heart break because of you

放弃爱你
[I’ve] Given up loving you

SEE!!! The song speaks so much lor. Although I don't really like Meng Fei Chuan, but i've got to applaud them for this song!!! *clapz*. Ok whatever. haha. (:

Anyways, was having many urges to blast alot of things out to Junqiang. Since I can't do them in reality, I shall do them here.
*warning: will sound very mushy and despo*

to JUNQIANG ONLY:
Seriously is it really so difficult to fall in love? Why you never want to give me a chance de. It's not that you're not ready for relationships lor. It's up to you! You can be ready if you want to! Why can't you just try it out? Who knows whether it will work out or not? It might! IF it doesnt, just break up and get along with it. Is it really that difficult? Why won't you give me a chance? It isn't as though I don't like you. I do and I do!!! I still do!!!

okay. embarrassing. I didn't really blast it all out coz i wasnt really in the mood to do so. haha. (:

Finally got some of the pictures we took during work from Yahui. (:



Haha. How nice, being sandwiched between 2 guys. LOL! Just kidding. US and Chen xuan!!!


Haha. I remember that we were caught by the manager after this photo was taken .LOL! me and yahui at work!!! haha (:

ok! now for Dano job photos!!! haha. (:

havent been blogging for a real long time due to lack of time coz I had to work and stuff. Anyway, I havent posted the photos of Dinner and dance from singapore poly!!! i shall post all of them now. Anyway, as for dinner and dance, it was great!!! food was nice, song was nice, disco dance was nice, Salsa was nicer!!! I was crowned Salsa queen with Brandon, who was salsa king. HAHA. (:

havent been blogging for a long time coz I have been busy working after the Singapore poly thing ended. Shall blog only on 28th. (:

Was super tired to blog for the past 2 days, so i've decided to come blog today, and post pictures of yesterday and today. (: we camwhored ALOT. Haha. with random people also. LOL.

YESTERDAY:
was the infocom course. SUPER STUPID! we were separated into different groups, and we started playing dumb ''bonding'' games... listen to some ntuc guy talk for an hour... before an hour's lunch... then we were supposed to watch some outdoor performance from 1.30pm to 5pm. =.= but ALAS! it started raining. so performance cancelled. so most of us went to book KTV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!! SUPER FUN!!!!! Everyone in the room (around 20 people) were singing as though there was no tomorrow. HAHA!! And we went for Salsa much later. Well. It wasn't difficult lurh. But I had a fucking lousy partner. Damn. Nevermind. He improved later on. BLEAHZ.

Today:
Okay, went to Singapore poly. then went to chinatown for some detective thing, whatever. Then went for some maritime thingy, before boat ride. seriously no mood blog now. Shall stop here, and continue some other day. photos are in the next entry. haha.

Suddenly I'm reminded of some things that happened yesterday when we were at orchard.

We were walking down orchard road to go to Far east when I had the sudden urge to hold Junqiang's hand. But I know it would be impossible, so I held Huiming's hand instead, since she was the only one who would allow me to do so.

I think Huiming got my idea and came up with an idea: Why not we hold Junqiang's hand? One hand each! So Junqiang held out both his hands so that we could hold his hand. At first I only held his wrist softly while Huiming interlocked fingers with him and walked. After awhile, Huiming went, ''KIMBERLY AH! I ASK YOU INTERLOCK FINGER YOU GRAB HIS WRIST FOR WHAT?!''. So I interlocked fingers with him and continued walking.

So the situation was Junqiang in the centre of me and Huiming, and both of us were holding his hand in the interlocking way. This continued for more than 2minutes I guess, and Huiming let go of Junqiang's hand, coz she wanted only me and him to continue holding hands alone. But I somehow felt that Junqiang was trying to slip out of my hand, and so I let go of his hand. I don't know whether I'm just being over sensitive to feel that he wanted me to let go. I don't know.

And the moment I let go, Huiming said super loudly, ''WAH LAH! WHY YOU LET GO?! Wasted the opportunity I nicely set up for you...''. But I knew that Junqiang wouldn't want to hold hands with me alone.

So after that I held hands with Huiming instead and continued walking. When we were on the escalator, Addy suddenly called me, and i turned over, only to see her and Junqiang holding hands, with the sole purpose to let me see.

I understand that Addy only wanted to spite me *in the playful* way. But Junqiang.......??? He want me to get jealous of Addy over him? And, he probably wouldn't allow me to hold hand with him one-to-one. But he allowed Addy.

What does that make me?! ASSHOLE. Yes, its my nature to get jealous, and I get jealous over the slightest reasons each time. Extremely jealous, especially when it comes to Junqiang. Even when he gets engrossed when talking to other girls, I'm jealous too. Take yesterday for example. When we were on the train, he didn't even speak a word to me, and was talking to Huiming all the way. We were sitting in such a way that I sat beside Huiming, while Junqiang sat beside Huiming.

In fact, it was only after Huiming left that he decided to speak 2 sentences to me. This was how it went after Huiming left.
JQ: Why you so quiet?
Me: You all never talk to me then what? you expect me to talk to myself?
JQ: Ohh. Coz I never sit with you so never talk mah.
Me:................

And only when he was about to leave that Junqiang just told me, ''Bye bye. zai jian.''. I merely said, ''bye'' without looking at him. I was super jealous and upset, and told Zhenqin about it. Zhenqin was super sweet. I was telling him how worthless I am in JQ's eyes, and how upset I was over JQ. Zhenqin was super sweet in comforting me. He was telling me things like, ''you're definitely worthy! You're not unworthy! It's Junqiang who's not worthy of having you. Go home, take a shower, and cry, if it makes you feel more comfortable, and forget about Junqiang ok? so cheer up! (: .''.

I would have forgotten Junqiang if I could. Too bad, I couldn't... I've decided. I'll wait for Junqiang for another 2 years. If I still don't get any returns by then, I'll give up. Till then, I'll wait for him.....

Went to Singapore poly for the Life science thing today. WTF friggin boring. We even had to gear up like astronauts coz we had to enter the ''clean room'', which is a place that has to be particle and dust free. So we ended up looking like idiots. LOL. They're in the photos below.

Anyway, we felt so bored that during lunch time, we ran out of singapore poly, and we never went back. HAHAHA. We even called Junqiang to ask him along to play arcade and stuff at North point, which he agreed, and so we went.

DANCE DANCE REVOLUTION!!!!!!! Super cool. And drums. But I had no more monnies. So we went to Far east at orchard to shop instead. So it was mostly me and Huiming doing the shopping, while Junqiang stood outside the different shops to wait for us to finish trying on slutty clothings. Haha. Okay, nothing much. It's so super duper crap lah. Here are the photos (:

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Although I said I won't initiate it with Junqiang, I did... In the end...

Yesterday I told him that I no longer like him, and asked him, ''Hey I'm curious to find out something. why don't we just try it out? If can then we continue. If no then we separate. I'm very curious to know whats the answer leh.''. And he was like, ''I will tell you tomorrow when we meet up for dinner.''.

So he kept me in suspense for a day. Had a whole friggin long day at Singapore poly in school of architecture. Was pretty boring at first, but it was fun later constructing the 3D interior and exterior of the house. Won the best presentation award. Rushed to meet Junqiang later with Huiming.

Met up with him and went to yishun with Huiming to have macdonalds before going to arcade to play. Huiming ''mastered'' ddr. Congrats to her.

Went home with Junqiang and Huiming.. Requested for the answer from Junqiang. It was rather dramatic I guess. I even stopped at Admiralty to talk with him. Conversation was for around... erm... Waiting time for 4 or 5 trains. Yes. That was around 9pm. Here's the conversation. It isn't exact words. But the meaning's there.
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Me: Hey, so you haven't told me your answer for the question yesterday yet.
JQ: I really don't know what to say leh.
Me: Just say lah.
JQ: Normally in such situations I will keep quiet one lor.
Me: =.= Now i'm asking you not to lah.
JQ: You want me to tell you more straight forward or not?
Me: Straight forward.
JQ: No.
Me: *expected that answer but started to get sad* um.
JQ: You wanted me to be more straight to the point what.
Me: Then can't you just tell me straight away on the phone last night? Just want to keep me in suspense one day? Very fun is it.
JQ: No lah... But really, no matter which girl ask me this question, my answer would be 'no' one lor. Coz it's like, weird. Shouldn't the guy be asking this question instead.
Me: It's coz the guy is too ballless to do so, and thats why the girl have to do it.
JQ: Guys never do it is got reason one lor.
Me: Yea right excuses. Who was the one who asked me in the first place!?
JQ: Coz I thought we know each other for so long liao. Maybe I have feelings for you, but I don't know only leh.
Me: Crap. You said that in the end you realise that you don't like me. So if I had agreed then, and you realised that you don't like me, we'll only last like, 4 days before you ask for a break up?!
JQ: No. If you had agreed then, I won't ask for a break up.
Me: But I did agree then...
JQ: But I thought you didn't answer me then what...
Me: Yea... Actually I was thinking if we manage to stay together for the critical period of one year, I'll wait for you for the 2years that you're in NS... But that seems too impossible to fulfil anymore.
JQ: I'm speechless. I really don't know what to say. But I admire your spirit.
Me: So what. Does that even matter anymore... ...
JQ: Can we go sit down? I feel very bad that you're standing.
Me: -.-
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*Okay I was already very sad then.*
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JQ: Can you tell me how long has it been?
Me: Going to be 20months soon.
JQ: What?!
Me: *blur*
JQ: Why did you like me? I'm curious.
Me: I don't know. I really don't know.
JQ: But really. It's not really coz I don't want. It's more of phobia, coz I'm rather old fashioned due to my dad.
Me: Don't try to find excuses. If it's a 'no', its a 'no'. No need to explain further coz it'll just be lies since you're just trying to patronise me.
JQ: I'm really not. But I'm really not into relationships now. Ya.
Me: So? Like i said, no need to find excuses to patronise me.
JQ: Can we talk about this matter in a cheerful way, and not so serious?
Me: *thinking how stupid it is* sigh. okayyyyyyy.

*continues alot of crap with how he will never understand until he really likes someone*

JQ: But even if we're together, i'll just find it weird. Coz I'm old fashioned due to my father. But really, I'm losing alot of things this holidays.
Me: So? You don't cherish them anyway.
JQ: No lor, but I'm really losing friends and everything. It's like, nobody bothers to keep in contact with me. Maybe a tiny bit of Huiming and Annette. But the only one who bother to keep in contact with me is you.
Me: So? Does it even make a difference? If you had the choice, you would have wished that it was ZQ instead of me.
JQ: No lor. Do you know that even when me and ZQ were on best terms, you're still my closest and best friend?
Me: I don't believe you.
JQ: But really, I really don't want to lose you as a friend. You're my one and only closest friend. I don't want to lose you. You're the only one who keeps in contact with me.
Me: Coz I'm the only one irritating you. You don't even bother to initiate conversations with me. So who's the one not keeping in contact?
JQ: It's coz I really don't know what to say, and I usually don't initiate conversations.
Me: Whatever. So am I supposed to do that too?
JQ: If you want I can't stop you. But can don't? I really don't want to lose you.
Me:...........
JQ:Really.
Me: *sees approaching train* But no matter what, I'll continue waiting for you. *runs into train*
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Yea. Was trying to suppress myself from crying, but of course, couldn't hold back. Cried a number of times for short times until ZQ smsed me... This is how the conversation went:
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Exact words:
ZQ: So? Wads e result? Wad did jq tell u?
Me: Result quite obviously is no... But today i let alot of things off my chest. He said tt he nt rdy due 2 pressure frm father. But i rly told him alot of things. He asked me how long i lyk him n y i lyk him. I just frankly told him e truth. I oso told him tt if last time he took me for serious and tt we manage to stay tgt 4 at least a year, I will wait for him while he's in NS. He told me that he rly dunno wad to say, and that he rly admire my spirit. Like i bother bout tt part. And he told me alot of things too... E part tt i've always been e most impt fren 2 him...
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The moment I saw Zq's reply, I really broke into tears. uncontrollably. Even ZQ understands, but JQ don't. I haven't finished reading his reply, but I cried. Very badly. Why, an outsider understood more. Why can't JQ understand?
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ZQ's reply: So touching ;-( Sob. His father give him pressure in term of school work? But i also admire your spirit. Not many or shud I say very few girls will actually wait for tat guy during ns. Very touching. But promises are easy to make but difficult to keep to them. Ya. Jq or maybe other guys next time is very very very lucky to have u as a gf. Ya. If nxt time my gf lyk u so loyal, i will be very very fortunte *he spelt wrongly* and i will love her alot. Ya. But i doubt i will find tat girl thou. Haha.
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I only read the front part at first and i broke uncontrollably into tears. its lyk, unstanding zq...

TODAY was the most boring day EVER in Singapore Poly. Wasn't that bad at the beginning, coz Wenhao sat beside me in the auditorium. He was so quiet!!! And he got the dao look that seems so intimidating! I dare not even talk to him. He doesn't even laugh or smile much lor. The only 2 times I saw him laugh today was when Uncle Francis made some lame jokes. He was so scary that I was shivering beside him. Or it is coz it was cold? Aiyah. Either way, I know I was super nervous, which may possibly mean.......... GASP. O.o

At first I offered Mentos to him, which he politely refused. I thought he was those super ass kind of guys who find green apple flavoured sweets too girly. But I was wrong!!! 3mins later, he brought out PINK coloured strawberry sweet and offered it to me! HAHAHA. It was like, DAMN CUTE! Haha. And that poor guy was like, so shy!!! I think he dare not talk to me, so he was like, nudge me with the sweet to ask whether I wanted any, which I politely refused too. But it was coz I already had sweets that I didn't accept his offer.

But ALAS. We had to be separated into 2 different groups, according to alphabetical order of our schools. :( And since Wenhao was from Bukit Panjang Government High, obviously we were in different group. So he left, and I didn't get to see him for the whole day liao. Damn sad. :(

So today was the engineering school. WTF. The most B.O.R.I.N.G course ever!!! I tell you, I rather go ITE than go into engineering school. Damn boring!!! Somemore no Wenhao. WTF. No wenhao = want to go home. Shit! I think I MAY be falling for Wenhao lah. WTF WTF WTF. It's like, i never once thought of Junqiang when I'm with Wenhao.. Aiyah, even without Wenhao I also never think of Junqiang in poly. It's outside poly that I occasionally think of Junqiang. But it's like, mostly Wenhao now... OMFG! Don't tell me that I've falled for Wenhao... GASP.

Actually it's nothing surprising. I think I really don't know who I like more. Junqiang, Or Wenhao?


Anyway, me and addy got so bored on the bus today that we decided to take photos! But I think we had at least 20 failed shots before we gave up, and this was the last picture. Haha. (:

Doesn't Wenhao look like yongpin?

As usual, went to singapore poly today. Was abit boring at first, because they were introducing the school of business to us. Okay, BORING. Next.

Was walking to the school of business with Wenhao, Addy and Huiming. Wenhao was like, quite nice and quiet I guess. He's really nice. Addy and Huiming were... Thinking of ways to push me to him. Haha. Whatever. But I ended up sitting beside Wenhao in the classroom. (:

Went to play some funny board game. Macham like monopoly, but more complex. I was pissed that I was the banker, and couldn't play the game. Was in different group from wenhao addy and huiming lah. SAD. :(

Went for lunch with Addy and Huiming. Their food was... quite nice and reasonably priced I guess. Huiming didn't pick on her food, which means the food was really nice. Haha. But I ate sandwiches only. So healthy. AS IF. HAHAHA.

Anyway, we went back to wait for the classroom to open, and YAY. Wenhao came soon after and ''joined'' us. *actually he just stood beside us himself and kept quiet*. I was calling Junqiang at that time, and that stupid Junqiang. Leg numb so take hell long time to walk to the phone. Haha. And he wanted to talk somemore, when we were supposed to go into the classroom liao. So I literally hung up on him. Haha.

Anyway, we had to play this diapers monopoly board game, and I partnered with Wenhao!!!! ^^ haha. We got 2nd position among everyone. YAY. (: So Wenhao became the 'daddy' and I became the... AHEM... Mummy.... Whatever!!!! haha. But wenhao was more high during the game, so it was fun!!!! AND I REALISED WHY I PAID ATTENTION TO HIM!!!
He looks like both yongpin and Junqiang!!!!! He's a mixture of both of them!!!!! SCREECH! no wonder. Haha.

After that I went with Huiming to yishun to meet ki tat *the guy who wanted to jio her*. HE SUCK! he like Huiming somemore keep flirting with me, a girl whom he knew for less than an hour. FREAK HIM. Now princess mingming's super angry with him. Bleah. Serves him right! ASSHOLE.

Forgotten to add on. Huiming was saying that I'm like, 3timing!!! I'm not!!!!! :(
She said I'm 3 timing Junqiang, Wenhao and Zhenqin. .____.

Eh eh eh. How many times must I say ah. I'm totally NOT 2/3 timing lor. Only one timing: Junqiang. Ok ok ok ok ok? So don't ask me anymore. Let me clear some stuff.

Junqiang: Current impossible crush.
Wenhao: Yongpin-look-alike that I met in Singapore poly. He's just an eye candy to pass Singapore Poly days.
Zhenqin: Erm. I just treat him as my cute didi. (:

Ok yes. So that sort of sums up everything. Yes. So I'm only one timing, and thats Junqiang. So don't ask me liao.

WHEE~~

Today was a super super super happy day! (:
Went to Singapore poly with princess mingming and Addy. Was suppppppper boring at first, but like what I said in the previous entry, I wanted to see cute drooly guys, but I was promptly disappointed. I can safely say that 90% of them don't meet the ''cute and handsome'' mark. :(

But of course, I did meet some not-so-handsome-but-still-handsome guys there. Haha. I purposely wanted to move 2 seats down the auditorium so that I'll get to sit beside him/them. Seriously, they are the best looking ones in the entire auditorium. Haha. Princess mingming was like, asking everyone for their names. Haha. I think some got freaked out. Haha. But I still remember the name of the 2 shuai ge sitting beside me. Jun Hao and Richard. Yes. But too bad, coz they're so friggin dao. So I sat with them for around an hour and was daydreaming about them when they stood up and ALAS. They're so friggin short. Much shorter than me. Losers. So they got striked out from my list immediately.

Then we got this long boring talk by this boring person, which acted as a lullaby, coz everyone in my sight fell asleep. I think even the organizer guy was also damn bored with her that she interrupted her by saying that we should go for our bunch now. Haha. I thanked him silently for that. Huiming said that I have the strict CEO face during the talk coz I looked at though I was paying close attention to whatever she was saying, but was actually stonning out and thinking of some other stuff. Haha.

Yes, and soon, we got separated into groups. I was separated from princess mingming and addy coz all 3 of us were in different groups. AWWWWWW. So I got into this group, which I really found very cute and very nice to be in!!!
Firstly, all the handsome guys, including that Junhao I mentioned earlier, was in my group!! YAY! which left no handsome guys at all for Addy and Huiming. HAHAHA.
Secondly, all the people in my group are very nice!!!! They're like, super friendly to me! Especially the guys. They let me have my way all the time. And they talk alot to me too! That's nice of them right?
Thirdly, my trainer was fun!! I forgotten his name though. HAHA (: Here are some photos I took today. Sorry i know its very little coz blogger only allowed this max size of photos. :(



Do they look alike? Seriously he doesn't really look like yongpin in this photo. But he really has the yongpin aura in real person!!! Huiming and Addy also says so. Even when he smiles, he has those wrinkly eyes that is REALLY LIKE YONGPIN!!!

Actually.................. I don't know whether I still like jq or not. It's so, vague. Maybe I don't. Even if I do, I bet that it's just a teeny weeny bit. Maybe ignoring does help? Well. Friends do help too. Was worried that I would actually get super lonely and miserable without my dearest friends to help me get over jq totally.

Much thanks to those who helped me get over JQ:
Leeanne <3
Zhenqin <3
Huiming <3
Esther (:
Shunyi (:

Really. Without you guys, I bet it would be super hard for me to get over him. Okay, I havent TOTALLY gotten over him yet. If I have to rank the intensity of liking him, 1 being don't like him, and 10 being totally heads over heels, I think I would rank myself 4/10. Or maybe 3/10.

Thanks. I love you all. (:

Leeanne really helped me alot coz I bitch alot. HAHA. Zhenqin gave me advice on attending to matters of jq. Huiming told me how inferior jq is as compared to other guys. Esther and Shunyi kept me company on the phone, to keep me from having temptations to call jq, while everyone gave me frequent reminders not to sms or call jq. haha.

If it wasn't for you guys who were around to help me cope with this, I bet I would have broken down even after one day of not talking to jq. But now, I've survived 3 days, and I'm not being utterly miserable over it. Ok i admit I DO miss him a tiny little bit. But I doubt we'll even see each other till next month. Well. Not as though its a real bad thing. Just taking it that I'm just getting a break of him. I HAD ENOUGH OF MR SU. *sticks out tongue*

Anyway, CRAP. Will be attending the Singapore Poly thing for the next 2 weeks with Adeline and Huiming. Seriously I doubt I'll be in the same group as them. Maybe it isn't necessarily a bad thing coz we'll probably get to know new people ie. Hot girls and cute drooly guys. Haha joking.

But I really hope I can find some eligible guys who may probably find me eligible too. *blushes*. Humph. I'm sooooooo gonna flaunt him to Junqiang and probably say something like, ''Look at my super eligible boyfriend. You're just a smmmmaaaaaaalll fry compared to him. Humph.'' and give the doe eyed act cute face to my 'boyfriend', who would initiate a break up the moment he sees that face. HAHA.

Junqiang, I still remember what you said if we meet somewhere on the streets 10years later when I see you with your wives and a dozen kids. I still remember what you said if I seen you. HAHAHA. Shall SHARE your innermost thoughts there. I will imagine the scene.
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10 years later...... DATE: 3December 2017
Kimberly walks down orchard road with her husband and kids, and sees a familiar figure walking towards her direction. She squints her eyes, and realised that it's her secondary school gay, Su Junqiang, with his heavily pregnant wife, 3 surrogate mothers, 7 clingy kids bugging him, and him carrying 2 babies on his arms. Junqiang spots her, and both of them starting chatting.
Junqiang: Hey Kimberly, remember what I told you 10years ago?
Kimberly: Huh?
Junqiang: That I would have a gazillion babies, of course!
Kimberly: Oh. It doesnt look like a gazillion to me!
Junqiang: OH pur-lease. Here is my 9 children, followed by my 3 surrogate mothers, who are pregnant with one child each, and my wife, who's pregnant with twins! How about that?
Kimberly: Wow. How did you do that.
Junqiang: *cocky face* I told you I was potent. You didn't believe me.
Kimberly: I'm fertile too okay, you bitch.
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HAHAHA. I shall await for this date. LOL. I wonder what will jq say if he ever sees this post. HAHAHAHAHA.

Haha. I found this quite cute. So ya, ENJOY (:

結婚前後

結婚前 往↓看：


他：太好了！我期盼的日子終於來臨 ！我都等不及了！

她：我可以反悔嗎？

他：不，你甚至想都别想！

她：你愛我嗎？

他：當然！

她：你會背叛我嗎？

他：不會，你怎麼會有這種想法？

她：你可以吻我一下嗎？

他：當然，決不可能只有一下！

她：你有可能打我嗎？

他：永遠不可能！

她：我能相信你嗎？


<結婚後> 從下往上看↑

Went to Malaysia today. Friggin stupid! went to this tiko shopping centre. I admit that it's pretty big, and some of the prices are relatively reasonable too. But it's damn boring lah. But we did make a lot of purchases. I bought..... 3 shirts, 1pants and 1 jacket. HAHAHA. all for less than 100bucks. (:

Okay the above was crap. What's more important is the fact that I'm not talking to Junqiang or whatever, although I'm very curious to find out what his answer would be if I woo him.

actually i think its highly anticipated that he'll probably reject it. Haha.

But Zhenqin's right. I should believe Zhenqin. He said something to me that I should definitely believe! quote from ZQ: 不怕没人要，是看你要不要。 Huiming also agreed. Why should I hang onto one JQ when I've got the whole forest? Giving up the whole forest for a tree? Not worth it.

YES. It's not worth it. Wait till I've totally immune to it before I'll ask Junqiang of his answer if i were to woo him. Haha. But as i said, it's highly expected that he would refuse, since he said that he minds it now. Ass. HAHAHA.

I've decided.
I won't woo Junqiang.
Neither am I going to contact him.
No way.
Zhenqin is right.
Junqiang will not accept it no matter what.
Although I very much want to try to believe that he will accept it.
Zhenqin said that he's a meanie.
I agree!
Junqiang, I'm gonna get over you!!!!! (:

Wahhhhhhhhhh! Those people whom I asked advice from all said that I should woo Junqiang instead. Wahhhhhhhh! How do I do it???

Esther was telling me to just ask him to try it out and see whether we could work out. If we can't, then we break. If can, we continue.

Leeanne said that I should go along with it. Better to try and know the answer, rather than not knowing the answer at all.

Zhenqin just finds Junqiang an ass, and that I should never believe him.

Huiming just feels that I MAY stand a chance.

I don't know leh. I have a feeling that its kinda impossible between me and Junqiang. He mentioned last night that he didn't mind in the past, but now he minds.

Since he minds, how to make it possible???? Junqiang, can you not mind?

Junqiang, don't mind it, can? can???