ok haha. back to blogging for awhile. just a small advertisement for leeanne =] she did a PUNCH animation. super funny and cute. must see! =]

http://ic3.deviantart.com/fs18/f/2007/150/f/7/Punch_by_nobodyno1.gif

ok anyways, nth much happened today, so i shall blog for yesterday =]

FLASSSSHBACK

junqiang, zhenqin, samuel and huiming came my house to 'learn bio'. actually is to play and torture my hamsters. lol. fun. and we were cam-whoring in my room since huiming left earlier. junqiang and zhenqin were like, playing with my accessories in my room and taking photos. lol. still have all the photos with me. HAHA. funnys. =]

badminton match. lol. samuel and zhenqin lost to raymond and tt whoever it is guy. well. at least they won the second round. so not tt bad afterall. ZHEN ZHEN AND SAMUEL JIA YOU!!! =]

bored. so decided to blog for yesterday. FLAAAAAAAASSHBACK

ok yesterday marked the first day of chinese intensive. sucks. so friggin boring. as though it's gonna be of much help. was so bored cos most of them not around. hais. and junqiang's also sitting quite far away, so freak, no talking. sat with wenyan. not tt bad too. just too serious. nth much to say about chinese intensive.

tt mrhui came late for assembly thingy. idiot. he was late for 55mins. hah! asshole. at least we have time to play and crap and sleep. yep. and he revealed our quartile for class position. and yes, tt's about it. nothing much too. and went to yishun with zhenqin, samuel and junqiang. stayed 1m apart frm junqiang, since he finds my actions on him too amorous. so yes. i stayed far far away frm him. quite emo yesterday at samuel's house when watching movie, but doesnt really matter though. 1 METRE APART! =[

ok. lol. went with junqiang and christie to study at woodlands library to study. quite beneficial indeed, since i managed to re-memorise qualitative analysis and study some bio crap. went to food court to eat and stuff.
and managed to pull both guys to waste money on neoprints. basically for christie, since i havent got his pic. =] now tt i've got everyone's face, it's enough of neoprints for me!!!!! >___< getting a lil tweaked from neoprints, now tt i got too much of it this year. cant take the stupid songs playing in neoprint shops. but to get everyone's face, i'm out to do it! and now tt i've got it all, TATA neoprint shop!

weird day in sch today. was without junqiang most of the time during lesson for first half of the day cos he was on IT duty. so had the company of zhenqin, christian, samuel, leeanne and huiming... yep... quite fun though. lol. but more fun with jq around. anyways, he came back later too. so doesnt rly make much of a diff. anyways, dunno why junqiang suddenly so sad today. its like, he was so emo on our way to the back of the school to eat... and cos it was raining super heavily and we only had 2 umbrellas, so we had to make many trips to and fro to get 7 ppl across. it was quite fun though, cos it had been such a long time since the whole grp went out together. den cos i wanted to keep a clear distance and border from junqiang, and also cos there were not enuf seats, the guys sat at one table, and we sat at another table. den we were all drenched, especially me... then got this tiko pek on the table beside us keep looking and looking lah. BASTARD. idiot old tiko pek. feel like using chopsticks to gauge his eyes out. sickening asshole. samuel was telling me tt this guy's eyes were like, looking at me and following me when i walked away frm the table lah. WTF. gauge his eyes out lah. idiot. *digs* anyways, samuel suddenly came over and told us tt junqiang was crying. i totally freaked and blanked out and turned around.. and he was really crying lah... wtf. i didnt know what i could do, so i just went over with leeanne to comfort him a lil. poor boy. overstressed with exams. hais. and made him so low and exhausted. poor guy.

to junqiang:
dont be so sad about your results. u've done ur best kaes? really, you're not a loser. if u're a loser, i'm worse. so dont reprimand yourself anymore. i know u've done ur best, just tt u feel tt ur best isnt enough. i know... cos i believe tt i did study too, yet i only scored 1.5marks more den u... and dont forget, u won me in chinese by 0.05%. and i will never forget tt. u promised me tt u wont hurt urself le. dont ever break yur promise to me kaes? =)
and just to add on. if u dont feel comfortable about some actions, you can just tell me. i wun mind de lahs. must kaes? 我们还是会永远支持你的！！！ 加油！=]



i dunno why they say my actions and some behaviour towards jq is very misleading... maybe it happens out of my concern bah. forget it. i'll just keep a clear distance from junqiang, just to prevent unnecessary rumours that he minds hell big time, and also to make him feel more comfortable, although he said tt there's no need to. but i'll do it all the same.

i die for L1R5. exploded... yet i still get highest... high my foot... with this mid yr grades, i can only make it to millenia institute or poly... i exploded for jc liaos... 23.... gosh... wtf... i so hate this stupid thing... L1R5 got 23... L1R4 got 16... *yes i got D7 for the last subject*...

anyways, unhappy things aside. i finally took a pic of the teddy bear junqiang sew for me!!! =]

LOVE THIS SONG!!! <3

=]

I think i still love this song. mushy yes, but kinda nice. it's embedded in the previous posts. gotta search it urself. lol. if i''m not wrong, it should be 2 post below this. enjoy!!! =]

IF I NEVER KNEW YOU (Jon Secada and Shanice)

If I never knew you
If I never felt this love
I would have no inkling of
How precious life can be
And, if I never held you
I would never have a clue
How, at last, I'd find in you
The missing part of me

In this world so full of fear
Full of rage and lies
I can see the truth so clear
In your eyes; so dry your eyes

And I'm so grateful to you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Lost forever
If I never knew you

If I never knew you
I'd be safe, but half as real
Never knowing I could feel
A love so strong and true
I'm so grateful to you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Lost forever If I never knew you

I thought our love would be so beautiful
Somehow, we'd make the whole world bright
I never knew that fear and hate could be so strong
All they'd leave us were these whispers in the night
And, still, my heart is saying we were right
Oh, oh

If I never knew you
(There's no moment I regret)
If I never knew your love
(Since the moment that we met)
I would have no inkling of
(If our time has gone too fast)
How precious life can be
(I've lived at last)

I thought our love would be so beautiful (so beautiful)
Somehow, we'd make the whole world bright
I thought our love would be so beautiful
We'd turn the darkness into light
And, still, my heart is saying we were right
We were right

And, if I never knew you (if I never knew you)
I'd have lived my whole life through
Empty as the sky
Never knowing why
Lost forever
If I never knew you

damn sad!!! just viewed and marked my mcq for biology... i got like, 6 wrong!!! i wanted so badly to strangle myself!!!!!!!!! it's so lang fei!!! tt means i only got 24/30 for biology... T__T den paper 2 i know i sure die... AW MAN! how can i be so stupid... chemistry i got 2 wrong for mcq... or did i get 1 wrong? aiyah. either way, i think i got 2 wrong... physics i think i got 1 wrong. yep. so........ SAD!!!!!!!!!!!!! as for chinese, i think i'm abit proud of my chinese. at least i think i got the meaning part correct. IT'S THE FIRST TIME I'M GETTING SUCH QUESTIONS CORRECT! so i think i deserve some credit for tt. =) tt's so cocky of me. lols.

but then again... i think i die for english... amaths... yah. those two is confirm die one lahs. the rest wont die, but wont live either. so i'll be neither here nor there... bye bye JC... but then again, i'm still happy today cos of tt....................... nvm.....

cant stand it!!!! junqiang won me in bio mcq!!! and i think he won me in physics and chemistry mcq too... and i think he won me in emaths and chinese and english and humanities... maybe i'll tie with him in amaths... oh freak. tt means he'll win me overall. k i think i'm too competitive... but dont care liao. i cant stand losing. i'm a sore loser. i've already picked him as my competitor, so i must take it seriously.. ARHS. JUNQIANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!!! *STRANGLES* ok fine. i admit tt i'm not as smart as him, although i very much not wanna admit it. but no choice. it's the truth. he IS smarter den me. hais. smart ass. ><

LOL.

MUSHY video. but SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEET. =)

ok i know this is strange, but i think i'm more stressed after the exams. it's like, RESULTS!!! ardz. i just wanna get all the results and get over and done with it. i'm super sian of this exam thingy. and to think tt ppl actually say that the ö level stress is totally nothing. i'm like, WTF! it's just mid years and i'm already going crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i'm totally not used to not studying now that mid year is over... i keep pacing up and down, not knowing what to do. i dont wanna study. i'm tired of studying although i know i didnt really study much. =( die lahs.... i know my amaths is confirmed FAIL! so horrid of teachers to torture us this way. that's the worse way of torturing us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and they say tt setting difficult papers will make student "strive" even harder so that we'll be able to do well for o levels. but they're so noob to dont even undertstand tt it's the stupid difficult papers they set tt makes us wanna give up. it's like, stupid lah. C? adults are not tt smart as they think afterall.
finally fixed up my computer... lol. finally it's working properly, just tt i have to reinstall everything, and apparently, i'm lazy to do tt. hehes. =) *and yay, my msn going to finish downloading liaos.*
either ways, i very worried for mid years... it's like, i did try my best to study, although i know it aint enough, but at least i tried... and it's like, i totally got no confidence lah. i keep telling myself tt i'll get A1 if possible. but it's like totally lying to myself. so retarded of me... sigh. RELAX!!!!!! =)

ard. i hate this new blogger thingy. cant even copy and paste properly. so stupid. *or is it the user stupid?* aiyah who cares. either way, it sucks. =)

tmr will be our last paper. seriously, i have not much confidence in this exam... my amaths is confirmed dead this time, and so is my emaths. well, i'm ust hoping that i'll do well for my emaths paper two tomorrow and try to see whether i can scrap from a perhaps fail/just pass into a B4 or if lucky, B3. cos i know my amaths is totally DEAD. i'm just glad if i dont get an F9 for my amaths. sigh. to think i was aiming for distinction... it's like, i cant even secure a pass now... much less to say, distinction... my confidence this time is reall horrible. i dont have confidence in any papers.... maybe chinese... but that is provided that i do not get the meaning of the passage wrongly... cos the passage is a lil chim, so if i didnt misinterprete the meaning, i should be able to do relatively well. maybe not an A, but better den failing all my papers. must work super hard for o levels.

for the class tests in term two, we havent gotten back our compos yet, but i do hope that i can get around B3? or maybe B4... but lets just let me comfort myself and say that i got B3. in that case, my L1R5 for the class test 2 would be 15, and my L1B4 would be 10... ok, that IS an improvement from the previous time... but i dont think i'll get this kinda results for my mid years... which means i'll have to greatly increase my study time, and sacrifice my sleep!!!!!!!! >____< sister was also commenting tt i appeared stressed cos my so-called "flawless" face has becomed pimpley... gosh. i so hate this. but no choice. IT'S O LEVELS!!!!!!! so tt's what u get for sacrificing ur sleep to study. try sleeping at mid night and waking up at 4 am to study, b4 going to school at 6.30, and studying again in school, and play for about 30mins b4 going back to books till mid night. well, i exaggerated in this. i had 2 hrs of break in between cos i wanna watch the 5.30pm show and the 9pm show. hehe. so yep, i did slack too. and i cant be considered to be mugging, cos i believe i was stoning most of the time, which is why i havent even completed what i'm supposed to learn for mid years, which means i'm so gonna die... and for some reason, my confidence level in this exam is so slow that it's definitely tonnes and tonnes slower than normal exams in previous years. well, at least, i hope my L1R5 this time is below 20... otherwise i'm really gonna die frm excessive studying/stoning..
somehow, i expect my results to be just totally average this time... i'm realli not confident of getting what i want... ok, here are what i expect the max. i would get for all subjects:

english: B4 *hopefully*
chinese: A1 *hopefully* or maybe A2
maths: C5??? *lets just hope so*
amaths: D7??? E8??? *i just hope i'll pass....... T___T*
biology: B4?? *hopefully*
chemistry: A2 and if possible, A1 *Crosses fingers*
physics: A2 and if possible, A1 *Crosses toes*
social studies: B3 *hopefully*
geography: B3 *hopefully*

in this case, the L1R5 i'll be getting is............. hmmm... 18? or if lucky, 16... and the L1B4 would be 11... i'm not very upset with the expected L1B4... i'm just upset with the L1R5.. 18 is totally not what i want... and i'm giving myself a big discount on english, cos i know it's impossible for me to score B, when i usually cant even secure a pass... and i know i'm also lying to myself about the emaths, cos i know i'm definitely a goner. so..................... bye bye JC..... T_______T


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i so love this! =)